My heart bleeded, girl

This is the first episode of my beloved show that I can't find even one positive thing to say about. Okay, I take that back, Sam and Dean were very pretty.

You know me, I always say if Sam and Dean are in it, it's worth the rest of the crap. I've never felt this way before about an episode. I mostly hate it when people bitch and moan about "the direction of the show" and I'll gladly take anything they throw at us.

But this one....

I'm not a fan of Twilight, but as a first generation Beatles fan and as someone who had an epiphany about music elitism during my popslash days, I don't like the idea of mocking a cultural phenomenon, or musical genre, just because it appeals mainly to young girls. So there's that.

I don't like the portrayal of Dean as either homophobic or defensive of his heterosexuality.

Why were only the girl vampires locked in cages?

Those would only be minor annoyances if the actual plot hadn't upset me so much. I'll admit that.

I was fine with the storyline that there's something wrong with Sam, whether it's that he left his soul on a park bench somewhere in Hell, or that he's some sort of Alpha monster, but what was entertaining for the first few episodes needs to be finished now, so that we can have SamnDean back for what is arguably the last season. Get on with it, Sera. Enough.

That made for a powerful moment, when Sam just stood there and smirked. I said, "Whoa" out loud, and then immediately posted to that effect. But as the story unfolded, I hated it more and more, and I need an explanation and I need it now.

Also, I'm tired of Dean being all stoic with Sam - there's no way he shouldn't have called him on what happened. Stop wussing out and confront him already. Stop just getting in the car with him and holding all your thoughts and suspicions inside. Hopefully, that will be next week, please.

I find myself most upset about Dean losing Lisa and Ben, and I lay that directly at Sam's door. I really wanted him to be able to have both worlds, and I think he could have. The need to make Dean's life one of constant, unremitting misery without anything good in it is getting to me. Enough already. I loved how he was with Lisa and Ben, I was loving the phone calls home, and I loved how Lisa was handling the situation. And now he can't even have that bit of alleviation of the total crap that is life with Sam right now. I really, really hate that. They didn't need to "resolve" things with Lisa, they could have let them stay the way they were. Dean was back on the road with Sam and that should have been enough.

I'm just really bummed right now and they've never made me feel that way before. I'll just be sobbing in the corner until they fix it.