My heart bleeded, girl

Yesterday we had the furnace on, today it's almost too hot. But it's gorgeous and I'm not complaining.

So, I have no idea what happened to the CW here last night. The Penguins game - which the stupid Flyers won - was off the air for a while because the station in Atlanta that the feed was coming from got struck by lightning, but I don't think that was the problem with the CW. There was no picture for the first 6 or 7 minutes, then there was a flickering split screen picture, then a good picture with scrambled gibberish in place of closed captioning. The local CBS affiliate also owns the CW, and so for a while there we had audio from CSI, with Catherine Willows and Jim Brass speaking while Sam and Dean were talking. Then at 9:36 we got audio and it was fine. And this morning I watched a download, and it's all good.





I loved this episode and I'm going to be thinking about it for a good long time. It was so dense, so many changes in perspective, so many things to think about.

It was absolutely, in my opinion, one of the most tragic episode we've had so far, on many levels. Sam and Dean have to deal with what it means that John had another son, without ever getting to know that son, and they have to deal with how the different way John chose to deal with Adam as opposed to themselves affected them all. As in, Adam is now dead.

• I love how they walk around with itty duffel bags and a trunk full of junk/weapons, yet manage to pull suits and dress boots and overcoats out of their asses when they want to play federal agents. No, really, I love that. I also loved Dean's dress boots a whole lot.
  
  
• Am I the only one old enough to recognize the song playing in the bar when Dean talked to the dead sheriff's wife? Burl Ives' A Little Bitty Tear? It seems like a very Dean song to me. And now I've had There's A Little White Duck stuck in my head all day, because Burl Ives, for some unknown reason, was someone whose music my Mom played a lot of when I was little.
  
  
• I think Kripke has, or had, a different vision of John than what John ended up being like. And I think a lot of that has to do with Jeffery Dean Morgan. I think John was going to be colder, more crazy, maybe. But JDM brought such warmth to the part, and the love he had for Sam and Dean was so palpable onscreen, that John, as a father, at least, was never as dark as Kripke's original intention. /reading Kripke's mind.
  
  
• I can only imagine how hurt Dean is by feeling that here is yet another son John loved more than himself, but I don't think he did. Love Adam more than Dean, I mean. He paid the kid the kind of attention you would in that situation, which was admirable, but that's it. He made sure Sam and Dean had the skills to survive. That's love, at least in the Campbell/Winchester world.
  
  
• I love that Dean's first words, "It's a trap," were right all along.
  
  
• Wow, Sammy, with the acting like asking Castiel to bring Adam back to life instead of burning his body is like deciding to have pizza for dinner instead of Chinese. How far we've come.

In conclusion, oh, boys. Oh, Dean. Oh, Sammy.



Erin's PMS is causing me to gain weight this week. So far we've had candy bars, ice cream, and we just ordered a pizza. Luckily, she just started her period.